Friday October 6th, 2023
Be Still
I have to be honest, I’m stressed. My goals and dreams for the podcast are at an alltime high, I can feel the support and buzz slowly building around me and I feel miles away from where i started but in the opposite direction. Like I’ve pushed back rather than move forward. It’s all in my head but that doesn’t make it anymore easier to deal with. I remind myself that this too is apart of the process but it’s hard to see my family make so many sacrifices only for me to continue pursuing a dream that doesn’t offer the preverbal ROI.
Am I overthinking things?
I need to accept the fact that my depression and anxiety are dominating my mental capacity to overcome my fear of falling on my face. I need to look into speaking with a therapist. The truth is I’m so immersed in my work that any deviation from is considered a failure by me and me alone. All you ever hear while pursuing a passion is the dedication and sacrifice you must be willing to make in order to succeed. I just feel like sometimes it’s a give and take.
I don’t know. Maybe I’m just overthinking things.