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Dreams

August 14th, 2022 ▪️12:35 am

For a few weeks now I have been having very lucid dreams. Maybe lucid is the incorrect word to describe them because almost immediately upon waking up I forget the dream entirely. Yet, even when I have a hard time remembering the dream I still have the sense that the dream was vivid and real. I feel this void in my chest like I was in the middle of something deep and personal. This has happened every night now for the last few weeks and I’m starting to become worried. What in the world am I stressing about so much that my brain is still working while I’m trying to rest? It’s tough. I remember one night I dreamt that Jerry and I were working together but not at FedEx. We were like, I don’t know, we were putting stuff back on shelves at some sort of high tech equipment store (work with me here 🤷🏻‍♂️) and it was third shift. It was just him and I and we were hustling to get things done but he needed to leave and couldn’t help me finish. I finished on my own. Nothing makes sense when I woke up but the little I remember from that particular dream made sense in the moment. Every dream is with different people and it leaves me feeling sad when I wake up. Like a homesick feeling. It makes no sense. I’m at the point where I just want to wake up from a good night’s sleep and not remember anything. Until then I’ll wake up and scroll on my phone because a dream left me feeling off.

Good night.